December 28, 2009
Weekly Weather December 28, 2009
A complicated emotional and very energetic, action oriented week is ahead of us. The actions want to go BACKWARDS rather that forwards. We want to look back at our past. We will all want to crawl back into some sort of giant cosmic womb. However, we don’t fit any more into that old womb of ours! The womb is too small. It doesn’t work for us the way it used to. We can’t go back. We aren’t 100% sure we want to go forward either. But we know we can’t go back.
The eclipses are coming! The eclipses are coming! The eclipses are coming in VERY emotional signs and bringing up profound emotional releases as we seek to change the structures we’ve built in our life. Mars is retrograde in Leo screwing up our ability to take direct action yet making us VERY conscious of what we DO want even as we can‘t approach it or want to run away from it, screaming for our cosmic mother! Mercury is retrograde in Capricorn screwing up our ability to communicate clearly and concisely so the few words we actually WANT to say are completely misinterpreted.
Venus is CRANKY and depressed in Capricorn as she joins with Pluto and squares Saturn so we aren’t feeling the love, desired, pretty, wanted or even particularly valued. What we want seems SO out of reach right now. There is a Fist of God or Hammer of Thor forming to challenge relationships and partnerships so we will want to run away rather than face the situations and do what needs to be done. We need to open the triangles up and speak truth to power and be honest in our relationships, damn the costs or the outcome. However, we really want our cosmic mother to come and cuddle us.
When men are dying in the battle field, they call out for their mother with their last breaths. When my friend Jean has a bad day, she shouts at the top of her lungs “I WANT MY MOMMA!” Now Jean is 78 years old, a tough Scorpio with four grown daughters and 16 grand kids. She‘s the proud matriarch of an extended clan. It isn’t even Jean’s actual momma that she calls for. Momma’s been gone a long, long time. It isn’t necessarily the momma you had growing up. It is the concept of the GREAT MOMMA ~ the nurturing Momma type person who will fight for you and take care of you so you don’t have to do it your self any more.
The story from last summer, the July eclipses, is back up and dancing around in your life. We see the results of the actions taken then in the story before you now. The story that started in July has its wrap up and EMOTIONAL conclusion this week or next. A new story around emotions based in our family, security, structure and the important work part or Saturn part of our lives starts and bring previously hidden or avoided emotions to the surface as the eclipses shift the nature of our consciousness and light up a section of our life with a pulsing strobe light.
According to Bernadette Brady, in her book, The Eagle and the Lark, the eclipse Saros cycle is 12 North. “Opportunities to accept greater responsibilities can come suddenly into the person’s life. These new commitments will most likely come as a result of another individual being unable to carry on. Although the events which herald these opportunities may be difficult, the outcomes in terms of harmony or self-esteem are good.” The companion eclipse from the summer which is wrapping up now was “This family of eclipses is concerned with the needs to make sudden reforms. Old ideas or methods will fail and new systems are required to deal with the events brought by the eclipse. As a consequence, the person will need to think of new ways of handling the issues. Any blocks could be violently or tragically removed.”
The eclipses are part of a larger cycle and echo back in time to 1992, 1973, 1955 and 1937, bringing up stories from those earlier times back to mind. Eclipses also make situations that have been festering come to a boil and burst open or pop. Remember you DON’T have to take action but you WILL want to take action.
Give yourself time to consider what you actually WANT to do or have before you speak. If someone in your life wants to “bail out” or “back out” or “run away” or “retreat”, encourage them to take the time and do let them go. Ask them to check back in with you at the end of May/beginning of June. Or ask if you can check back in with them at the end of May/ beginning of June. With both Mercury and Mars retrograde, it is a good idea to POSTPONE having to take forward moving actions until those planets go direct, January 15, 2010 and March 10, 2010 respectively. Mars clears his shadow in early June and is completely clear on the changes he wants to make then. Mercury gets clear on the vision by the middle of next month. All to the good. You have to be clear on where you are going to actually get there!
Of course, that statement makes sense if you know where you want to go! Right now, until mid-March, you may not even know WHERE you want to go. Totally fine and completely in harmony with the universe. The universe is saying “Go back! Go back!” as Mars is retrograde. The going forward energy is going backwards….
Mars retrograde is particularly difficult for the men or anima parts of us or our ability to go for what we want. Our mojo is no go! We don’t wanna. We want our momma! But, we are where we are because of the choices we made ~ good, bad or indifferent, conscious or unconscious. We know better now but we did manage to get ourselves into a bit of a sticky wicket with some of them. Again, patience. It will unravel or did unravel as it is supposed to. It is a cosmic time out with Mars retrograde. So it is a great time to pick up old tasks and work on them as well as contact old contacts to move yourself forward. Go back to your past to proceed to your future. Back to the future so to speak.
Venus is very picked on this week. She’s in Capricorn so she’s responsible and ambitious. She wants what she wants and it is probably of high quality or pretty expensive. She’s joining with Pluto so she’s going to have to figure out whether she can afford what HIS price is. And, Pluto’s price can be high. Open up those triangles and expose the cost to light. Don’t be afraid to ask for what you or Venus want. Venus is fighting with, squaring Saturn so she’s back to mid-October 2009, around the 13th, and looking at what she agree to do back then. Now she’s trying to figure out HOW to do it. And she’s trying to figure out if she actually WANTS to do it. (hint ~ she probably doesn‘t want the deal she made back then.) She might not want to do it ~ or at least not in the same WAY that she wanted to do it back then. (hint ~ postpone or delay until May if you can! Renegotiate if you can!) Mars entered his shadow right around the time Venus committed to the new project. But truth be told, she’s not so sure she’s up for the project any more. Or that she wants to be stuck doing all the work on it all by herself.
Focus on the concept of the VISION. When Mercury is retrograde, we are asked to look at our VISION or our IDEA of what we think we want. We are asked to revise or redo that idea or dream. It is an INTERNAL process. Once Mercury goes direct on the NEXT eclipse, January 15th, 2010, we’ll be ready and raring to go with the revision.
The Fist of God or Hammer of Thor is one difficult aspect. It is forming with Mars retrograde as the handle as Mars aspects Pluto and Juno by sesquiquadrate. Juno and Pluto are square and Saturn opposes Juno. As partnerships, marriages or relationships break up or break apart, Mars wants to look back at the past and see just exactly what was REALLY going on. Mars is in Leo and quite curious actually. Mars has been thinking about things as his retrograde journey brought stuff to light. Give Mars and yourself permission to do a bit of diggin’ around to see what ACTUALLY went on. Ask a couple of questions. Invoke the triangle strategically to get the information you want. While part of you doesn’t want to know, there is a very curious part of you that DOES want to know. Find out exactly how much or who said what or what was done or not done. Don’t act on the information. It will inform your choices down the road.
And, IF you are asked for additional information about how much or who said what or what was done or not done, make sure to provide the information to the best of your ability. Don’t withhold it. Give it over. The Mars retrograde has a nasty tail that acts as a stinger on the information withheld. Don’t fool yourself that you can get away with it. The cosmos wants the information to come out. And it will come out! And, as my mother used to say, it is better if I hear it from you than from one of the neighbors!
There also is a funky envy energy flying around with this Mars retrograde. They want what you have. You want what they have. Own the envy. Claim the envy as yours. Name the envy. Envy is a difficult energy to own but we need to claim it to stop it from seeping out and causing all kinds of problems for us. And, if you are feeling the envy directed AT YOU, name it, identify it, blast it with gratitude and good. Over power the envy with light. Don’t diminish your life or light because you are being envied. Naming and claiming envy takes away the power. Lighting envy up makes it shrivel or at least causes it to crawl away.
Monday is a rocking and rolling day. Moon in Taurus is void from 12:54 pm all afternoon until 8:13 pm EST. The Moon’s closing aspect is a square to Jupiter suggesting you can accomplish quite a bit if you push the energy AND that things begun or done under the moon have an abundant, expansive, expensive quality to them. Venus begins her difficult time with Pluto and Saturn as Pluto also squares Juno ~ the relationship challenge today is to ask for what you want recognizing you may not get it but that you do need to ask for it. The Hammer of Thor or Fist of God is banging away. The Hammer today includes Venus with Pluto both responding to Mars’ difficult energy. The relationship is undergoing major, major changes. Like molten steel, respond to the hammer knowing that you are being shaped into a new form that will support your future and make you who you are to become. Mercury is in the nodes, pushing you forward, even though he is retrograde. The news today is part two of the journey ~ part three is at the end of January. Juno and Mercury are very clever in their approach to each other. Clear out your space and your life of negative, difficult or demanding energy. Great day for releases of emotional energy too.
Tuesday Moon in Gemini has few aspects and a lovely closing trine to Jupiter. Again a lovely day to push things out the door that you want, to achieve good outcomes. Remember the eclipse is about releasing the old to let in the new, which will be better for you down the road apiece. Right now it might be hard to see HOW this could be better. But it will be clearer once all the smoke, disturbances and dust storms from the Mercury and Mars retrogrades settles down. Sun has a semi-square to Chiron suggesting there are wounding words or information that comes to light. Remember Moon in Gemini is ruled by retrograde Mercury in Capricorn. Double, no triple check all information particularly around business matters. Jupiter joins with Neptune by declination to push the energy forward a bit and help you follow your dream. The energy can be a bit depressing.
Wednesday Moon in Gemini is void from 3:29 pm to 9:45 pm so take the afternoon off and relax with the Moon on vacation. Mars perfects the sesquiquadrate with Juno to say “Hey, how do you want to adjust this partnership?” Juno was the jealous wife. Envy can be a big issue today. When it surfaces, make sure to NAME it and recognize it! Juno used to pursue Zeus’ conquests rather than confronting Zeus and holding him accountable for his bad behavior. Where are you NOT holding the proper person who behaved badly accountable for their bad behavior? Own it. Own the envy. Own the fear of retaliation. Are you the envier or the envied? Are you a bit of both? Hold the proper situation or person accountable. It IS a dance for two you know. You got to where you are now because of what you BOTH did. Juno by not confronting Zeus and Zeus by ignoring Juno’s jealous feeling and not confronting them. Venus has a bit of a break and wants to beautify you or your surroundings. Sun semi-square to Neptune makes it easy to deny how your actions contributed to the situation. Again, back to the envy. Uranus semi-sextile to Chiron suggests that by changing your behavior a teeny tiny bit you can have a major difference in the outcome. Often we pull in people that reflect or expose our own wounds. They mirror the part of our chart that we don’t like to own. We think they are yet another example of how our life sucks and endlessly repeats itself. But we contribute to that situation, that endless repetition, by our own refusal to confront and face our own deepest fears. Well the universe is in the mood to show you your greatest fear this week and over the next few weeks as the eclipses bring that energy to light. Don’t be afraid to look at it.
Thursday Happy New Year! The eclipse is here! The eclipse is here! Moon in Cancer is full and falls across the Nodes of Destiny as Sun in Capricorn pulls you toward a new direction. Turning point time. Companion to the July/August energy! Closure of the story of the eclipses that exploded in your life back then! Consciousness! A new beginning of a story that will close in June/July of 2010 with the closing eclipse energy. Read the Full Moon report on this site for more information on how to work with the energy. Moon in Cancer has a lovely closing trine to Uranus suggesting an expansion, exciting and quite creative conclusion to the events begun under the Cancer Moon. Give yourself other choices today and tonight. Saturn is sextile Ceres suggesting that supportive changes to diet and how you nurture your self are great resolutions. Venus has a supportive aspect to the patterns and strategies that help you run your life so follow up on those too. Saturn does end a partnership or relationship to day with his opposition to Juno. Put a ring on it ~ the end of 2009, a difficult year for so many people is closing today! YEAH! The transitions may not all be complete but we are well on our way towards getting our life into the condition we’d like for it to be in. Mercury needs to make an adjustment in how it thinks things will be going. They always change! Mercury and Mars and their conversation today makes you realize the problem was larger and longer than you thought.
Friday is a New Year! Moon in Cancer is void most of the day ~ between 10:43 am and 9:41 pm EST. Because so many planets are at the beginning degrees of signs, Saturn, Pluto, Venus, and soon both Jupiter and Uranus, we are going to have FREQUENT and LONG void moons most of the year. Get used to them and set up mindless busy making tasks to occupy your self during them. Venus is semi-square to Chiron so the financial, love or emotional wound is great and it stings quite a bit. Look for envy today as the Sun has a harsh aspect with Jupiter making us all a bit grandiose or crazy ~ why can‘t you have what they have? Why can‘t they see how hard you work for what you have? My dear friend Llorraine and I go out for tea or a similar adventure and I depart with a reading list. During our Christmas Tea, we talked a great deal about Envy and the devastating effect it has on the soul. She suggested I read Ann Ulanov’s book Cinderella and Her Sisters: The Envied and the Envying. Mars in Leo is a proud, fierce, loyal and love based Mars that roars “I am what I am! I am great! I am good! I am LOVE!” Mars in Leo going RETROGRADE is Envy. “I am not! I am little, poor, sad, and not great! I am bad! I ENVY! You have what I want! I need to destroy you to get what you have! Or I’ll envy you right out of your goodness.” Don’t agree to it. Shine a light on the envy. Name it. Own it. Claim it. Recognize it. Take away envy’s power by acknowledging it.
Saturn’s day Venus has a semi-square to Neptune ~ again she’s not feeling great but at least she is clear on what is going on. The fog is lifted. Sun has an aspect of brilliance to Mars ~ once you SEE the envy you understand the life limiting energy it forces on you. You know what to do. You feel the energy wock into your body and say “Wow, that felt like a shot of envy that just hit me!?!” You pull it out like a miss-shot arrow. You understand the life denying force that envy carries with it. See it. Name it. If you are feeling envious, own your envy too. My friend Laurie tells a story on herself as a young actress about how she was jealous and envious of another actor’s beauty, grace, gifts and roles. The other woman was incredibly gracious, kind and generous which made Laurie feel EVEN WORSE about her envy. And Laurie owned it. Standing in the light of envy and still shining with all your might is the goal. As my friend Llorraine said during our Christmas Tea, “Who are you to ignore or diminish your gifts and insult the Divine Spirit that gave you those gifts? Why would you NOT shine? You would rather dim your light because it makes another envious? And you would spit in the face of Divine Spirit?” Llorraine DOES have a way with words!!?! I encourage you NOT to spit in Spirit‘s, Divine‘s, God’s or Goddess’ face! Own those gifts of yours. Own that envy of yours. Both are ways to find what your true path is.
Sunday Mars perfects the Fist of Thor with Pluto’s part of the hammer as Venus has a great, creative and brilliant idea. Remember the adjusting energy of the changed relationships WANTS to look, needs to look, has an insatiable desire to look. LOOK! A void moon from 4:55 pm to 9:52 pm allows for a quiet and peaceful afternoon with people you love. Vesta stations and goes retrograde in Virgo as all the holiday lights come down, homes across the land go back to winter and take down their sparkle as January begins in earnest. Moon’s opposition to Jupiter suggests the plan to release or let go that is part of your New Year’s Resolution is going to go very, very well!
Personal: Lots of Changes Going on Around Here! Mars in my natal 6th and 7th house has been RATHER disruptive with work, habits, health, life and employees.
On a sad note and, yet hopefully, terrific, wonderful and great transition for her, Ruth Salen, my assistant for the past four years is moving on.
Ruth joined me in December of 2005. The four years have simply flown by! She handled the phone messages and emails as well as various other tasks and responsibilities. She was the front door / gate keeper for my astrology practice. Her Virgo Moon could always be counted on to structure, quantify and organize. Her Aries Sun/ Jupiter can do spirit accomplished tasks with speed and alacrity. She encouraged. She offered great ideas. She figured out how to fix the problems. She made me laugh with her wry observations and sense of humor.
In the time Ruth’s been working with me, my practice has more than doubled, thanks to her effective scheduling, follow up and follow through. She‘s heading off to a new position with her very own office to help run a foundation for children as well as pursue her myriad other interests.
When Ruth resigned, the Part of Fortune was on the Moon and North Node so I know the move will be excellent for her and take her life forward in a great direction. Ruth will always have a special place in my heart (You always remember your first ~ in this case, my first assistant!) as well as my eternal wishes for blessings, peace, happiness and bundles of love in her life.
Copyright © 2009 A.C. Ortelee
